On Wednesday July 1st, for the first time in my life, I will be off to Saudi by myself to perform Umrah. Umrah, the spiritual and holy pilgrimage of Muslims to the sacred city of Mecca, is at the very least, a sublime and life-changing journey of a lifetime. From the stories and experiences of everyone i’ve spoken to, i am beyond excited yet overwhelmingly nervous. however, beneath it all, i’m trying to remain positive and optimistic, my biggest worry is that i will somehow do something or some things wrong and “waste” this journey of which i may not have the luxury to perform agan. Everyone is telling me not to stress though, the thing they emphasize is to just go with pure and proper intentions and the rest is God’s judgement, lol but i’m not sure how that’s supposed to ease the nervousness. Regardless, i believe i’m in the right state of mind right now for this journey and i hope, insha’allah, that i come back a better man.
*note to self: you better come back a better man.